During my whole school life, I was bullied by the word “6kka”. Being gay is hard in Nepali society and I just want to share about me being gay to my parents, sibling but how do I get the courage to do it? I still remember all the bullying from school memory which makes me question how do I tell my love once about being gay.
I am too scared that they won’t be able to understand me, what if they reject me? I have been living in Melbourne since I was 19 and Australia made me so much independent, confident but still haven’t got the courage to tell anyone I know. I am too scared that I might lose my family. I don’t want to lose them or make them embarrassed in Infront of Nepali society where they live in. Also makes me questions what if I have to go and live back in Nepal where I will be labeled “6kka”.
One day I told one of my best friends about being gay told me that he/she will support me but after that day neither he/she talks about me being gay nor ask me anything. We still are friends but when we meet or talk, he/she never brings the topic of guides me. I mean I support all his/her relationship topics I am always there for his/her relationship issues. I just wanted a friend who understands me but since then our relationship wasn’t the same as before.
So, I believe if I confess this to my family, I might make their life + mine hard to survive in Nepalese society I know they might still come and talk to me. But my relationship will not be the same as now therefore, I am scared too scared. But also, don’t want to live my life with this guilt forever. I want to make friends with who I can share my feelings. I feel good sharing this in this confession page. Thank you everyone for reading it.
Male 25, Melbourne
